12/02/25
"I'm a believer of nothing is a coincidence."
As of late I have been reading the Beastars manga while also watching the show on Netflix, And there's been a lot of talk of instincts, and allowing one's true nature to show. It's been making me wonder if this message is relevant to my life, and well today during my daily card pull I received the confirmation that yes, this exact message is meant for me.
I'd like to preface that I never questioned if there was a message for me, but rather what was the message. Sometimes it isn't so obvious and it takes intellectual digging, meditation, or something else to trigger resonance.
Here was my card pulls today and their booklet meanings:
01/07/26
"Inspiration is unique and moving."
"Universe/God is everything and makes everything, right? So it really can be and feel like a best friend too."
"Happiness isn't pleasure, it's victory."
The above statements have been conscious teachings for me as of late. In the past with inspiration, I used to put it in my pocket and save it for later, so to speak. And two things would happen: Later would never come, OR when my "perfect conditions and time" were aligned, I would reach into that pocket only to find ashes in its stead. This was something I would do because of some of these reasons:
1) Pedestled someone else's needs, wants, or space
2) I wanted to seriously savor it, as if I wouldn't get the feeling again, and would deplete my ass off on unrelated things
3) I felt embarrassed. I somehow, felt embarrassed about acting on something that I know I would completely dive into and enjoy!
4) I would feel ugh'ed about the getting started of it
So yeah, some of those patterns were curated due to my environment, past experiences or beliefs. Over time though, I've been taking note of these obstructions and have been doing my best to parent myself through them, create alterations in my environment that increase chances of a successful session launch, and upgrade my beliefs with more positive, rational, and supportive phrases/words.
Since the tail end of '25 and into this new year, I'm feeling and seeing the difference. My self esteem is taller, I feel more like an individual, my pride is shining, and I look forward to more radiance and growth.
The Universe being able to also play a role as best friend is something I've always known to be, and have felt occasionally. But recently, due to my needs, desires and seeing real life stories and examples from others and also hearing encouragement from others, that knowing has been rooting deeper in me. Allow me to share one of my stories, to possibly aid your knowledge too.
I was in the shower, just like I would any other night. During this particular shower, I was experiencing a nauseating belly ache. I didn't want to look into it or anything, I wanted the discomfort to go away. Halfway through the shower, I had remembered that Universe is truly here for me all the time, and wants and delivers the best for me, just like a best friend would. So, I touched my tummy and my chest, and said in mind and out loud, "I want this pain gone, and I am releasing it. Universe, take this for me." Doing this alone helped me not centralize the sensation. Minutes passed, and I felt something like an unchaining, disconnecting, dislodging of the pain from my body. The moment I turned the faucets, stopped the water, and faced the curtain about to draw them open I stopped and stood there realizing... the discomfort was gone. Gratitude and admiration rosied my heart, and I thought the next perfect thing would be to feel a hug. So I said, "I want a hug now, an embrace I would just love to feel all around me, the kind that touches me deeply." Guessed what happened from that lol From the time I grabbed my towel and put my clothes on, I was feeling what I had envisioned and asked. Life is an amazing thing. We are never truly lonely. Not even on a cellular level.
Happiness isn't pleasure, it's victory. A quote I saw on my homepage extension. This was just the thing I needed to read, because as some of you know it's one thing to teach yourself, and it's another thing to hear from someone else say the same teachings, it just lands differently. As someone who believes happiness, love and expansion is the main motivators of the living experience, it felt great to read it out in the wild. Though I would say happiness feels oh so lovely like a pleasure, I also agree that the bigger picture of that experience is that it is a form of success. Happiness isn't just a blanket, it's also like a trophy and that makes me feel more secure and excited about going after things!
Those are all the things I feel like typing about for now. As always, thank you Ivy for doing this cool publishing thing and putting yourself out there thing. And also thank you to whoever uses their time and energy to read my passages!